Thinking Capriazly

Black Tangled Heart

2005-05-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

Maybe your luck has changed

Settle down

Maybe I'm just deranged

And on the rebound

Maybe love was the thing holding me back from all

Maybe I'm just the thing to break my own fall

Take the rope to my heart and fall

You may just be the last before you see the black tangled heart fall
Maybe departure's good

Makes room for more

Start to mass produce

For a chance to ignore

Maybe you'll kill yourself

Before I get a turn

Maybe I'll fall in love

And never learn

Antara Ada Dan Tiada

2005-05-06T02:55:00.000+08:00

Bosan..

Ku ditemani siapa?

Riang..

Ku berkongsi dengan siapa?

Sedih..

Ku mengadu pada siapa?

Lalu aku berbicara tanpa suara..

Berjalan tanpa arah..

Menangis tanpa airmata..

Kerna akulah Arjuna

Mencari cinta yang tiada..

Sun Or Rainbow?

2005-05-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

A soulmate/friend is like a sun,

always there shining your life.

Even if it doesn't, it will still be out there somewhere

eventhough you cant see it.

Others, are just rainbows.

They appear with beautiful colours to add into your life.

Gives you a reason to smile about

But soon they will leave

because rainbows come and go

So do you wanna be my Sun?

Or my Rainbow?

Layzee Day

2005-05-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

*Yaaawwnn*
Hahaha! what a lazy, lazy day..

I didn't go to work today

cuz i woke up late after watching Liverpool humiliated Chelsea

Padan muka kau! Kerek lagi!!

How high can you go?

and what shall i do today?

feel like watching movie..

maybe i'll see...

and what's with kids nowadays and SKIMMING??

whats that all about??

.::| Old Boy |::.

2005-03-17T21:23:00.000+08:00

At last! Went to JB and bought Old Boy Dvd. What do i think??
Asian psycho pop at its most psychotic. At once truly beautiful and utterly disturbing!

.::| The Aviator |::.

2005-01-28T01:49:00.000+08:00

Just as i thought! just one day MC.. and all the doctor gave me eyedrops! Buang masa aku jer...
Anyway, i went to tampines after that, i dunno why but i just felt like walking around and felt like watching a movie. So with this bad eye condition.. i watched The Aviator.
Tickets=$8.50
Hotdog + drink=$4.50
Time:8:45pm-11:30pm
Duration 2hrs 45mins
Cab back home-$4.30
Verdict-Worth every penny and sure as hell worth every minute my time!

The Eye

2005-01-27T17:19:00.000+08:00

Having this sore eye is really frustrating!! I haven't been to the doctor yet cuz it didnt hurt (at first) and I thought i'll just bare with it and it'll go away eventually, but it's been a week!! sheeshhh!! i went to work as usual.. not bothered abt the eye but my colleagues are the ones worried.. they help me applied EYEmo even.. heheh... but it didnt work.. so one of them reported it to the supervisor and i had to leave to go see the doctor. Let's see what the expert says...

.::| Blue Capriazly |::.

2005-01-13T20:06:00.000+08:00

I wrote this novel just for you
It sounds pretentious but it's true
I wrote this novel just for you
That's why it's vulgar
That's why it's blue
And I say thank you

I wrote this novel just for Mom
For all the Mommy things she's done
For all the times she showed me wrong
For all the times she sang God's song
And I say thank you Mom

I read a book about the self

Said I should get expensive help

Go fix my head

Create some wealth

Put my neurosis on the shelf
But I don't care for myself

.::| After All These Years |::.

2005-01-12T21:44:00.000+08:00

Breathe in the night
That crushed a tired sunrise
Born again the day
Brings young naivety

A laptop souvenir is worth its weight
In silver a golden son
You'll be home again
And I'll be home again

Mend in my sleep
I'm boxing under water
Waddle on the wake
Waking on a summer day

Munificent, artless and ascetic
Playing like a scared
Enthusiastic pawn

And every father's pain
Casts a shadow over a broken son
You'll be whole again
And I'll be whole again

After all these years
Forget about all the troubled times

All those years
I was hurting to feel
Something more than life

.::| Bored and Old |::.

2005-01-07T01:17:00.000+08:00

Hello, i know there's someone out there who can understand
and who's feeling the same way as me.I'm 24 and i've got everything to live for, but i know now that it wasnt meant to be.

Cuz all has been lost and all has been won and there's nothing left for us to save.
But now i know that i dont wanna be alone today. So if you find that you've been feeling just the same..

Call me now it's alright, it's just the end of the world. You'll need a friend in the world cuz you cant hide so call and i'll get right back. If your intentions are pure, I'm seeking a friend for the end of the world.

I've got a photograph and i'll send it off today and you will see that i am perfectly sane. Not for a lifetime or forever and a day, cuz we know now that just wont be the case.There will be no commitments and no confessions.No little secrets to keep.No little children or houses with roses just the end of the world and me.
Cuz all has been gone and all has been done and there's nothing left for us to say.
But we could be together as they blow it all away. And we can share in every moment as it breaks...

.::| End Of Days |::.

2005-01-03T02:03:00.000+08:00

wow, it's been so long huh.. hehehe. Sumbody asked me why i didnt update? duh.. simply becuz there's nothing to say lah..! sheeeshh!! ahh.. tapi sekarang ni ada.. what else?? end of 2004 and welcome 2005... but lets not talk abt how good or how bad 2004 was.. If i do, i'll prolly be the 1001 person to talk abt it.. instead lets talk abt RESOLUTIONS.. no, no.. i'm not gonna waste your time and abt what my resolutions are..!! gimme a break! i'll prolly be the 1002 person to brag abt it..
well, for some people.. they list down resolutions. What to do in the new year... what to achieve.. blurgghh! As for me.. i dont really look back.. neither do i look forward.. I just take each day as it is.. i'd rather be spontaneous rather than promise myself to do sumthing and ended up not doing it. It's even worse if it's dealing with other people... broken promises hurt people. So sorry to those who thinks that i broke my promises.. promise it wont happen again.. Errk!! did i say i promise?? hehe.. i take it back.. It wont happen again!

.::| Hole In My SouL|::.

2004-12-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

...I'm down a one-way street
With a one-night stand, With a one track mind
Out in no-man's land
The punishment sometimes don't seem to fit the crime
Yeah there's a hole in my soul
But one thing I've learned
For every love letter written
There's another one burned
So you tell me how it's gonna be this time
Is it over? Is it over?
Cause I'm blowin out the flame
Take a walk outside your mind
Tell me how it feels to be
The one who turns the knife inside of me
Take a look and you will find there's nothing there girl
Yeah I swear, I'm telling you girl yeah
Cause there's a hole in my soul that's been killing me forever
It's a place where a garden never grows
There's a hole in my soul, yeah I should have known better
Cause your love's like a thorn without a rose
I'm as dry as a seven-year drought
I got dust for tears
And I'm all tapped out
Sometimes I feel broken and can't get fixed
I know there's been all kinds of shoes underneath your bed
Now I sleep with my boots on but you're still in my head
And something tells me this time I'm down to my last licks
Cause if it's over, I'm glad it's over
And it's driving me insane...

.::| Bring me Dejavu |::.

2004-12-17T01:25:00.000+08:00

...Well, I visited Lukmann's bloggy and he's done with his wedding thingie. Even has that marquee styled pics up in his latest post. Mine's next.. eeekks!! Not my wedding lah! DUH! it's... err..umm. it's my.. err... someone's wedding lah.. That person is 3rd time lucky I guess..Anyway i wish him all the best, gd luck and make sure this one works!!!
I bought Hana&Alice's VCD, 2046 and Iternal Sunshine DVDs. Which one to watch first?? help me out!!

.::|MiSSinG|::.

2004-12-15T21:06:00.000+08:00

...Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one
"isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know
You forgot me long ago
Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

Even though I'd be sacrificed,
You won't try for me, not now
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

.::| mY OpiNioN |::.

2004-11-29T01:42:00.000+08:00

...So i watched Shutter and Puteri Gunung Ledang already. My verdict? hmm.. Shutter wasn't all that scary i as thought, cuz all the people i met who had seen that movie were all.."gerek!! seram gilerr!!terperanjat siak!!" bla bla bla.. so i thought hmm..mesti seram.Some of them even gave away some of the intense part.. I HATE THAT!!
anti climax!! I would cover my ears and shout all the stuffs that's in my head to avoid hearing what they say! tapi ada leakage..ish!! eh jap.. ada phone call..
ahh.. got a call from Eddy(my drummer) he's in Surabaya.. farnie man!! he said makanan kat sana susah nak cari yang halal.. he ordered nasi ayam i think and err..hehekeh.. k i'll give you guys a riddle. When someone orders Nasi ayam, how do you know that the chicken's not halal? think abt it and i'll give you the answer at the end of this post. Now back to our topic, yeah so that was it abt shutter. Good movie but not as scary as i thought.. now PGL. This is one of the best Malaysian movies i've seen.. funny how my comments differs from majority who's watched this movie. One said the story have no ending.. i said that is the ending.. he said.. no ending, dont know wat happened to Hang Tuah.. DUH!! i mean come'on.. history itself doesnt know wat happened to the legend!! and if the movie creates an ending for him, it would be a catastrophe!! Most of them said..slow..some of them said boring cuz not enuff fighting scene.. and some said good and talked abt the..err..movie SPECIAl EFFECTS??? huh?? the thing abt this movie is not abt all the effects, the fight scene or the ending.. it's abt understanding history. The culture.. the way Puteri Gunung Ledang flirted with Hang Tuah.. how she told Hang Tuah that she's interested in him not in form of words..but by dancing, and how Hang Tuah responded... The poems, the scarifices.. Hang Tuah's dilemma.. if i put myself inside Hang Tuah's "capal".. i think i'd go crazy!! that strong love etc...all the little details that some of you fail to see, understand and admire it! but then again.. we all have our own opnions. So for those who havent watch it yet.. go watch it and look out for those little details that i mentioned earlier and if you dont admire them.. well maybe i'm the one who has a bizzare brain. so how do you know if the chicken's not halal?? the answer!! THE HEAD IS STILL ATTACHED!! KWANG KWANG KWANG!!!!

.::| Tanpamu...sepi |::.

2004-11-25T01:03:00.000+08:00

...Kau belahan jiwaku
Kini aku sendiri..hampa
Kusadari begitu sangat beda
Perasaanku disaat memelukmu
Dengan tulus...dengan kasih

Satu ungkapan tentang tali kasih dan cinta putih
Suci adanya
Sangat aku sadari nafasku dan cintaku hanya
untuk dirimu

Hari-hari terasa sepi
Tanpa ada dirimu di sisiku
Jangan berpaling kasih
dari hatiku yang kusesali
Saat ini perih...pedih mengirisku
Hanya dirimu dapat melenyapkan perasaanku...

.::| Jalan Raya |::.

2004-11-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

..Ahh, jalan raya!! heheh.. actually I'm not in a mood for jalan raya this year.But wat to do? i suppose i have to keep the tradition going..Kwang!Kwang! Last sunday was the day i went visiting with my colleagues.The picture above is like the adverts we see on suria where you have celebrities, corporates..etc publicize their celebration and seek forgiveness thru television. Picture above says "Kami dari Harvey Norman mengucapkan, Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin!!" kwang!! kwang!!
I think a total of 7 houses, with me armed with golden baju, capal, shades...and as usual, no one to match my outfit with!Most of them brought their partners, "sepasang kurung biru, putih, kuning, hitam, putih".. semua ada lah!! but the golden kurung tak pasang-pasang. Asyik surut jer...kwang!kwang!! but i'm ok with that.. who said you cant have some fun? you can have all the fun you want when you have freedom..(punching fist in the air)MERDEKA!!
Actually planned a 2 day outing.. the next one this saturday, but i'm going out with my buddies this sat!! fair lah...heheh pada yang mana2 pihak yang tak sempat saya kunjungi, harap maaf.. takde rezeki nak datang rumah awak. Insya'Allah.. pada tahun2 yang akan datang, saya kunjung rumah awak! tak payah jemput pun takper.. tahun ni dah jemput kan? kwang! kwang! (dah blur) I'm getting sleepy actually...*yawns*

.::| Tanpa cinta..sepi |::.

2004-11-15T04:02:00.000+08:00

...Jantung berdegup, hati bertanya
Kemana hilang empat purnama
Tiada wajah, tiada suara
Tiada khabar ataupun kata

Hilang wajah, mulut bertanya
Hilang hati entah kemana
Apakah takdir hanya berpusing
Berpusing bergurau senda?

Bagaikan kemarau perjanganan ditimpa hujan,
Kau kembali kerana cinta?
Ataupun kembali kerana kesepian?
Itu yang masih menjadi tanda tanya...

.::|Malam Raya|::.

2004-11-14T04:04:00.000+08:00

...~Berlalulah Ramadan, sebulan berpuasa~, isk menyanyi pulak! hekhekhe.. so it's end of ramadan.*sigh* how i wish i could "balik kampung" and raya there. Actually dah memang plan lah nak raya kat kampung but what to do.. work commitments and i'm running out of day offs. But there's still nxt year, Abg Long is coming anyway. So i'll save my kampung celebrations for nxt year! Spent my malam raya taking photos around Geylang! I figured this is gonna be the last yr before Geylang gets demolished, so i took some pics for my personal memory. Besides i grew up there.. it's kind of like my playground! Some ppl say Geylang still have another year left, but from what i know, it's not confirmed. Hey my mum works there.. so trust me, I know!So i met Lukmann after that and had supper with him at the coffeeshop opposite my blk. What a scene.. young malay teenagers, guys and girls, having "drinks" around that coffeeshop! No not one table.. 3 or 4 tables each with at least 10 of'em.It was like they were having a competition on who's got the most empty bottles on the table. And they seem to be proud of what they were doing! I was totally disgusted! What were they thinking?? If only i work for Berita Harian I would've taken some shots of'em and publish'em in tomorrow's paper, "ANAK MELAYU SINGAPURA PADA MALAM HARI RAYA". Maybe you'll say i'm being KEPO and stuff, but it just so eerrghh!! The guys aside but the girls?? I'm not sure if their parents even know they are out with those kinda guys. I mean, kalau nak jadi nakal pun agak2 lah sikit. Nama sendiri tak nak jaga, at least jaga lah nama orang melayu. Maybe they are just kids and they dont think. I admit, I was also naughty and stuff when i was younger.. but not to that extend. Gee I was even helping Mum at her stall during malam hari raya. Entahlah.. hopefully they wont do such things when they get older.So enuff abt that, to everybody who have been reading my blog, i just wanna say kalau ada TERmakan apa2 benda, TERminum apa2, TERpukul kat mana2, TERkasar apa2 bahasa, atau apa2 benda yang kita TERbuat yang awak tak suka sama-ada sengaja atau tak sengaja, kita susun jari, susun rambut, susun apa2 yang boleh disusun.. dan mintak maaf. Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin...and i'm spent!!

.::~Miss You Love~::.

2004-11-09T20:06:00.000+08:00

...Millionare say, "Got a big shot deal"
Thrown it all away but i'm not too sure
how i'm suppose to feel, or what i'm suppose to say
But i'm not..not sure..not too sure how it feels
to handle everyday
And i miss you love...

Make room for the prey cuz i'm coming in
with what i wanna say but it's gonna hurt
and i love the pain...
A breeding ground for hate
But i'm not..not sure..not too sure how it feels
to handle everyday like the one that's just pass
in the crowds of all people...

Remember today, i've no respect for you
And i miss you love, and i miss you love
I love the way you love, but i hate the way i'm suppose to love you back
and it's just a fad, part the teenage angst brigade.

Remember today, i've no respect for you
And i miss you love, and i miss use love
I love the way you love, but i hate the way i'm suppose to love you back...

.::~Cintailah Cinta~::.

2004-11-07T16:08:00.000+08:00

...Where were we since the last time i posted? hmm, ahh yes... me trading in my mobile. i did but ended up paying more than i expected.
what have i been doing since the last couple of days? being sick, new mobile and yes!
the new video for my band is done! heheh.. and i got lukmann hooked up with an old flame. hahah!
Speaking of old flames... i met one of mine myself! it's a looooonnnggg story. she's kinda like the last gf i had, and that was like 4 yrs ago!! so we go waaaaaaaaaay back! the meeting? nothing much, had dinner(which i didnt eat cuz the food sucked!)
and we had ice-cream while we sit and talk abt old grandmother's stories. kehkhe..
oh yah, i watched Everybody Has Secrets yesterday.. hmm.. i rate it 3.5 out of 5.
It's good, but My Sassy Girl is still the best Korean movie i've watched!
And I'm spent!

.::~Blow~::.

2004-10-31T14:05:00.000+08:00

...Ever thought abt how it feels to have a taste of your own medicine? I think Manchester Utd didn't even have the chance! After ending "mighty" Arsenal's outstanding 49 games unbeaten run at home sweet home Old Trafford, they went crashing down 2-0 to tiny Portsmouth. Myself like everybody else, would expect Man Utd to start picking themselves up from that Arsenal game after a bad start to the season. But like they say, the ball is round! and in soccer anything can happen.well we just see who'll end up smiling come May 2005.
*sigh* Sunday afternoon, just got back from work and i'm suppose to go to starhub, and get my N3650 mobile traded in for a new N7610. OK, the initial plan was to go to starhub straight away after work.. BUT, silly Azly forgot to bring his charger along.(Trade in procedure!Must include charger!). Then i was thinkn, it's ok.. I'll just go home first, rest abt one hr and then go to starhub... now i'm home AND GUESS WAT!! I left my mobile's original housing at work!! WAD THE HELL!!!! now i'm stuck here typing away... stooopid! hahaha..! oh well, I'll just meet illi later and watch a movie. Watched "Cellular" yesterday nite, not bad. Today i'm watchin "Everybody has secrets". It's Korean.. I just lurrrve world cinema! Have yet to watch "2046" and "Old Boy".... when will that be? hmmm....

.::~In Utero~::.

2004-10-29T01:47:00.000+08:00

...Back from tampines. Buka puasa with Lukmann and Azman.Had some good laughs at anything abt everything!! Seems like a routine that never fails when the 3 of us meet! heheh..needed that actually since i've been having this splitting headache for the past week! hmm.. due to fasting? not getting enuff sleep?? both??? well i've been sleeping like 1 or 2am latest every nite! wake up a 330am, that makes it 1 1/5hr. by the time i finish sahur it'll be like 4, back to sleep and wake up at 630 for work. thats another 2 1/5 hrs and a total of 4 hrs every nite???!!! obviously not enuff!! and on top of that, i have to work and fast.. no wonder i'm getting sick! LOL!! but i read a quote from some celebrity, "You can sleep all you want when you die, why sleep now??"....yeah right! shit for brains...

.::~Can't Change Me~::.

2004-10-26T22:47:00.000+08:00

...She can do anything at all
Have anything she pleases
The power to change wat she thinks is wrong
So wat could she want with me...?

She has the daylight at her command
She gives the night its dreams
She can uncover your darkest fear
And makes you forget you feel it

But wait just one minute here
I can see that she's trying to read me
Suddenly i know she's going to change the world
And suddenly i can see everything that's wrong with me
But what can i do?
I'm the only thing i really have at all

She's going to change the world
But she can't change me
No she can't change me....

.::~Tentang Seseorang~::.

2004-10-25T23:52:00.000+08:00

Kulari kehutan, kemudian menyanyiku
Kulari ke pantai kemudian teriakku
Sepi..sepi dan sendiri aku benci
Aku ingin bingar..aku mau di pasar
Bosan aku dengan penat
Yang hanya saja kau pekat
Seperti berjelaga jika kusendiri..
..Pecahkan saja gelasnya biar ramai..
Biar mengaduh sampai gaduh..
Ada malaikat menyulam
jaring laba-laba belang di tembok keraton putih
Kenapa tak goyangkan saja loncengnya
Biar terdera
Atau aku harus lari ke hutan
Belok ke pantai...